Nov 25, 2009 @ 7:31 PM

THOUGHTS OF AN EXAM-TAKER
@ 7:31pm- i don't really know what im reading anymore..
@7:34PM- YES!!! dinner time. note to self: after dinner- renal&repro patho, repro physiology, PBL, pharmaco... GEEGEE! thank God for DINNER! x)
@8:50pm- just finished endo patho. -.-can't seem to recall anything. CRAPS. grrr. shower time!
@10:39pm- might be able to finish renal patho in an hour. i have realised the great importance of having good, neat, legible notes (x.x)
@11:20pm- my mind is blank... seriously.. x( dieee.... hope i don't blank out tmr. gonna sleep soon. good night...

<3,>

@ 1:25 PM

i just getting slighty sick of studying. but not literally, thank God.

today feels weird. it tastes like restlessness, with abit of guilt and... anticipation but hopelessness and frustration but resignation... and nostalgia... o.O

maybe procrastination's the sum of it. HAH!

the coffee's working and that cannot be wasted.

18 and a half hours till exam.
15 and a half hours till me feeling indifferent, like i do after every exam.

by the grace of God,
♥♥♥,
rob

Nov 8, 2009 @ 2:11 AM

kaha! its 2 am on a sunday morning andi just wanna say.. saturday was good! =)

the morning saw me enjoying my MUET paper. had a great lunch with family+ family friends and i'd say somewhat productive study time the rest of the day (which is a satisfactory enough start for me when it comes to study)

i know i've been MIA in the cyberworld for the past.. 3 weeks or so.. (doubt that's disappointing news to anyone. haha!) but i've been busy with the more tangible world. its been fun but as of yesterday, its 19 days till exams. so yes! i couldn't be more happy about studying (:

(: just thought i'd touch base with whoever's reading this before i disappear for another 2+ weeks. prayers would be much much much MUCH appreciated.

OOOH!
i was wow-ed by col 1:15-20
*The Supremacy of Christ*
He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.

haha! could have very wewll bolded the whole thing actually.. =P

(: to everyone sitting for exams... happy studying.
ttyl!

♥♥♥ rob

p.s. chatterbox is problematic ):

Oct 25, 2009 @ 3:25 PM

teehee! the sky's really cool now. look! there're rain clouds but still sunny! =D hee!

i havent had much to say lah.. so... that's the reason for the lack of updates. perhaps im learning to talk less crap...

i had MUET exam last wednesday and on tuesday i had sore throat and by wednesday it cleared! =D

dewali night dance on friday was fun! i screwed up abit but i guess im getting used to screwing up in front of large crowds... skin's growing thicker. haha!

next week's gonna be another busy week with malaysian studies project on THURSDAY!!! and i think BM exam on friday... yes.. its still tentative. but thank GOD its only 20%.

my God loves a sinner like me. man... that's so hard to imagine...

Oct 21, 2009 @ 12:46 AM

past week+ has been good =) hehe! ;);) tonight's bit weird tho. cos even tho im so dead tired, i don't feel like sleeping in case i die tonight. in which case, i wouldn't have to do my MUET tmr. but.... i don't think im ready to die yet. there're things still left undone. hmmm.. i guess im really not ready to go until i want to go.. get what i mean? heh. anyway.. tmr's gonna be a crazy day and only by God's strength would i get through this week. i am so blessed i tell you so blessed with everything and everyone that i have. so blessed i could burst.

ok sleepy sleepy. good night world. (:

love, robo

Oct 9, 2009 @ 10:39 PM

@ 6:17 PM

give it an hour and the sun will set.

i love friday nights in my room with a single dim light and chilled out music.

today was tiring

but i could swear i saw you smiling in my direction...

Oct 7, 2009 @ 9:52 AM

saturday- run for the nation. its this 5km run on the streets while we pray for Malaysia... (:

so i was "training" today.. the running bit la.. still got issues praying outloud while running. i cant even hear myself! hah! but anywhooos....

while i was running today, i asked God why.. since His people are already chosen, why is it that we're still told to spread the word to everyone? (im quite bad with putting my thoughts properly into words) so when i got home... The Parable of the Wedding Banquet!

1Jesus spoke to them again in parables, saying: 2"The kingdom of heaven is like a king who prepared a wedding banquet for his son. 3He sent his servants to those who had been invited to the banquet to tell them to come, but they refused to come.
4"Then he sent some more servants and said, 'Tell those who have been invited that I have prepared my dinner: My oxen and fattened cattle have been butchered, and everything is ready. Come to the wedding banquet.'
5"But they paid no attention and went off—one to his field, another to his business. 6The rest seized his servants, mistreated them and killed them. 7The king was enraged. He sent his army and destroyed those murderers and burned their city.
8"Then he said to his servants, 'The wedding banquet is ready, but those I invited did not deserve to come. 9Go to the street corners and invite to the banquet anyone you find.' 10So the servants went out into the streets and gathered all the people they could find, both good and bad, and the wedding hall was filled with guests.
11"But when the king came in to see the guests, he noticed a man there who was not wearing wedding clothes. 12'Friend,' he asked, 'how did you get in here without wedding clothes?' The man was speechless.
13"Then the king told the attendants, 'Tie him hand and foot, and throw him outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.'
14"For many are invited, but few are chosen."

♥♥♥i love it when God speaks.

YOU! enjoy your day! =)

Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is.

@ 12:08 AM

uh... hah!!! ok... i was playing around with this photo and look where 2 hours has brought me.. it was tricky finding an image host that'll let me hotlink the uploaded pictures. imageHosting.com works perfect tho =) this's so not what i planned to do tonight! sighhh... anyway... the background was taken before i was surprised at the farewell surprise at st. kilda beach (i think, it was. either st kilda or st clairs. i never could remember which beach was which..) its not the whole picture cos the bottom's really quite dark so i cut that bit off. i know the words still blend into the background abit too well but... i donno what to do la.. =/ haha! OH WELL! i think it is HIGH TIME study's due.

♥♥♥

thought: singapore people- what's with the recent over-use of "FTW"?! im assuming that's... for the win? o.O

Oct 6, 2009 @ 10:04 PM

haha! the reason why my blog looks like that... is... cos... i think the photobucket account with the picture expired =P shame.. it was a nice pic. oh well! guess that just means its time to revamp! =) maybe over the weekend =) yayyy.

On another note... everyday's been fun! =) learning more about the truth. heh. the joy that comes with that... so idiopathic i tell you. haha!

Run for the nation's coming up this sat... hmmm... havent been training much. plus i've this thing about praying out loud with other people around... i just feel really uncomfortable... but at least i know its defintely something i gotta change. maybe this saturday or maybe tmr, that'll change. hoho! i should pray about it aye!!!! why did that never occur to me!?! goshh! tsktsk. slow. pray about praying.. haha!

Studywise, ive been embarassingly inactive. yes i recognise that it is one of my few important responsibilities. sighhh... *tries to pull up invisible socks*

And other wise... thought: about couples who stay together for AGES. i bet they change but they still insist their partner's perfect. dont they get bored of each other? how can people be so certain about marriage? how are they so sure they're strong enough to not be fickle and love their partner no matter how monsterous they become? i don't know what love is.

Sep 27, 2009 @ 8:56 PM

=/ just got back from rawang... was so super tired.... KO-ed immediately after a shower.

*WHIIIINNNNEEEEE GROANNNNNN*

school's starting again tmr... there's really no more excuse and no option of not studying anymore.. i've got 2 months to sem 4 exams and bout 8 months before i'll be plucking out these roots and replanting them somewhere else. sighhhh...

school work's the bigger bummer right now tho. *#%^@$;#!!!!! RARRH

who will have ice cream with me tonight?

Sep 25, 2009 @ 11:05 PM

for about half a mintue today, i spent thinking about leaving next year. i might just cry... cos im starting to like this place. or rather, perhaps, the people. and i will miss here. why oh why does this always have to happen? =,( its painful to think about. emotions suck like that.

@ 12:05 PM

last night i dreamt i spoke to W.
i also dreamt of hanging out with my aunt and cousins. bit of a blurry drama.
night before last, i dreamt i hugged C and nearly cried out of joy.
i love dreams =) they make thoughts feel like reality.

Sep 24, 2009 @ 1:08 PM

SCHOOL'S OUT!! =D

so "what might i be up to?" you might be wondering if i wonder you're wondering. (that makes sense ok..)

i went for Thinking Theologically Conference '09 from monday till yesterday! =D my brain hadn't felt so used since... forever. yea.. it was draining but i'd say certain concepts i had regarding the cross and atonement has been and continues to be corrected (which is a very very good thing) eg... learning about propitiation and that ive been way way way too liberal. none of God's creation (not even if we had the right to give the entire universe) is sufficient penance for our sins. imagine the severity of sin. But, Jesus.

this conference turned out more theoretical than i imagined. but as a result, I am now convinced that being a christian isn't/shouldn't/couldn't be entirely based on feeling close to God, and doing God-related things only when i feel like it or when life's going good. but its about humbling myself because i am the creation and He is the creator who has shown unbelievably more mercy than we ever deserved.

and again, praise God for His perfect timing cos after what i came out of just a couple of weeks ago, this something i feel is really important for me to get my head around. so, not that im feeling particularly fired up. but bring on Reformasi IMU!! =D

After studying nothing but God-related stuff for the past 3 days, i'm feeling abit meh-ed going back to studying school stuff xP but i better get to it cos i only have today and fry-day cos ill be in rawang for the weekend away with alpha.

we're starting on repro next week. the boys swear they'll attend every lecture and not fall asleep. haha!

Sep 20, 2009 @ 5:38 PM

i spent pretty much the entire afternoon looking through my hardrive of photos and videos from the past 4 years... so resultantly.. now im just all nostalgic... i miss sgp, sc, kkmc, elim, el nido, foundy, cc. its just a list but yea.. i was gonna put up pictures and post videos. but its hard deciding which ones to put up.... so... yea.. i didnt put any up. haha! one day... one day... miss ya'll yo.. lots.

...saturdays make me think about life.

@ 2:22 PM

=) 'Eid mubarak to all my muslim friends =)

today is 'Eid. i don't know much about it. i don't know why they celebrate it. the most i know is that our muslim brothers and sisters ask for forgiveness and break fast. hmmm... but today as i was wishing my friend happy 'Eid i had this overwhealming sense of joy and love. the feeling that.. im sharing their joy on this special day with them. and i feel so blessed to be able to experience this. so to all my muslim friend. 'Eid mubarak!! =) i love you guys! =) =)

and.... *Drumroll......*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN!!!

I LOVE YOUUU!!! XD

@ 3:04 AM

teehee! greetings :) life this week has been at an all time high.. at least within the past one and a half years :) God has been showing up so much in situations its just been blowing me away. WHOOO!!! xD

TTC's coming up- monday to wednesday. i've got a feeling TTC's gonna be GREAT! xD so excited to see God work and hear God speak! =D in a way i'd be stepping out of my comfort zone meeting new people and all.. kinda jittery bout that bit too. but God will comfort if i'd just ask.

i shared something with jaer today. after that i realised, since it amazed me so much, why dont i share it more? why right? so here it goes...

couple months ago during my philipians course, an uncle shared this. a friend of his went to visit a silver factory in hope of finding out more about Psalm 66:10-For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver. she watched as the silversmith stood in front of the kiln, sweating. his eyes never left the kiln. she then asked him, "why do you have to keep looking into the kiln?" "i have to take the silver out at just the right time, or it may get damaged." "so how do you know when its ready to be taken out?" and he said,"when i can see my reflection in it."

just LOOK at God's analogy. wow.... lets take a moment to appreciate it...................................................

mmmm.... we're so fragile and God cares so much for us. He stands there and takes the heat. for us... who are we man? we are like... grains of sand compared to him. He loves us so much... and He knows the exact time that we'll be ready. that time would be when He is reflected in us... hee! i just love this. the bible has officially become my fav book =D

just an update... what was in my way before is now no more and now im just basking in the joy of new/renewed faith, friendships, seasons and purpose.

i miss my friends tonight...

yours in Christ with love,
rob

Sep 13, 2009 @ 8:29 PM

hello! =) just got back form CF camp at peacehaven up on genting. LOVED IT! =) it was just what i needed. i was in about half a mintue of awe when i realised how God's timing's just perfect. its been a tough two weeks. i fell in love temporarily with things that did not go down well with my christian walk. i knew full well that it was wrong. but whatever it was... it was strong enough to make me turn 180º away from Jesus. though part of me actually wanted to give it all up and start living a worldly life, looking back, that was a really big wall in my heart that just had to be smashed down. i know i kinda did it intentionally but. trust me. it sucked cos God felt SO so so... SO. far. i prayed for a change of heart and perseverence in getting through that desert patch. then God sent CF camp! not only that, there's the alpha weekend coming up on raya weekend and TTC after that. ill have time to "train up" abit before alpha weekend and come TTC, i'll be looking forward to my eyes being opened WIDEEE! =) plus lectures pretty much end on this wed, after which there'll be the raya week to study so i'll have time for the 2 of the most important things in my life right now. i like =) praise God. i'm so glad to be back on track again, heading up Mt. Sinai. =P

Lord, give us a heart for your people.

Sep 9, 2009 @ 11:26 PM

if i could, ill drop everything- school and all the other things society we live in says we should do. i'll hop onto the next plane to a spot with a view and sit there, taking everything in until i fall asleep. i'll pull you out of bed and drag you along for a walk. i wouldnt mind lying on the grass staring at the stars with you either. but it'll be over when the sun rises.

life's getting such a drag. i know ive said this before and i bounce back anyway. but this time feels different. im... changing in a negative way but not bothering about it cos part of me feels its ok. even the thought of upcoming christian camps and conferences arent making me feel like it's gonna get better. sketching a picture of my eraser and falling asleep arent things i usually do during lecture. the library isnt a place that makes me wanna study anymore. im getting to be anti social at home.

somebody, stab me.